Overwhelmed and checked out

I know I am not alone but right now I feel a little overwhelmed with life lately. Luckily I have my religion, my family, my friends, my ward, my coworkers etc to help keep me "checked in" to life. This isn't the first time I've felt overwhelmed by school but I swear this semester is going to be the one that does me in! The sad thing is I only have 11 credits (which is a lot but I've had more before) and the classes aren't even that hard but they all add one more thing to my overflowing plate! On top of working full time and being a full time student, I don't have enough time for "me" anymore and that's when people start to break! I can't even remember the last bubble bath I've had and that's my favorite past time! Oh and my "pleasure reading" all consists of hard cover 45,000 thousand paged textbooks. Oh what joy they bring! Insert gag face here.

I am also volunteering at Stetson's school one morning a week but I love it. It's so fun to get to go there and spend time with my little man and get to see him in an entirely different environment and to see him interacting with his friends. He's at that age (which I hope passes!) where he's embarrassed of his mother but I enjoy going anyways.

For so long I was set on being done with school as soon as I graduated from the RN program. I was dead set that that was IT! Well, that graduation was last December and here I am...still in school! Weber State made some changes to their BSN program (bachelor's in the science of nursing) and my RN class was the first class that would be able to enter into the BSN program directly from the RN program without going through the entire application process. Nursing is very competitive so naturally I accepted my spot and decided trudging ahead now was much better than waiting in line down the road. Luckily it's only 3 semesters long and I have 1.5 behind me with only 1.5 more to go!

I made the decsion to start the BSN program the really mature way...because my friends did it! My friend MaRee is a rock in my life. She was there with me through the LPN program, the RN program and of course now the BSN program so there was no way I was going to pass up the chance to do the program along with her and she was dead set on doing it so now here we are. She will graduate in December but I took the slower route and won't graduate until May 2013. Inset sad face here! Sheis only one example of the amazing friends I am surrounded by. I don't take one uplifting e-mail, text message or hug for granted. I love them all!

Anyways, I decided on my own to do this program and be stuck in school another year and a half of my life. However, during one of the many priesthood blessings Skylar was giving me over this past year and a half over intertility and surgery issues it was clearly stated that it was important that I finish this schooling. THAT is why I think I am feeling so checked out and defeated right now...I am sure the advesary is working against my trudging along because quitting is so much easier. I don't consider myself a quitter at anything in life. I am much too stubborn to throw in the towel and April will be here before I know it so for now I am taking it one day at a time and remembering what's really important in life and what has to give for now.

As for some good news...I am going to New York next month for a work charity event and I can't wait!! I'm meeting with my two NYC girlies going with me tomorrow so we can purchase our broadway Wicked tickets! We are also going to the Statue of Liberty...I am so excited and I cannot wait to see the big city! I love to travel and New York is one place I am dying to see!

One of the reasons I don't blog much lately (besides no time whatsoever) is because my camera has had over 1,000 pictures on it needing to be developed and it takes soooo long to upload anything so I just don't do it. Okay so I am apparently a quitter when it comes to that. However, I am happy to report that stood at Wal Mart for over 2 hours last week and developed 500 of those pictures and then deleted them all from my camera. One trip down and one more to go. THEN my camera uploading will be much quicker and hopefully I will have new pics to show!

Although life is stressful at times, I am so grateful to have the gospel of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints in my life. I am so blessed to have the priesthood in my home and to be able to depend on it for guidance and strength. I am so thankful for my wonderful husband whom I love dearly. He is always my solid rock and the person that guides me through life on a daily basis. He is so supportive of my hectic life and more understanding than I could ever ask for. He is a wonderful father and great at helping out with Stetson when I need to shut myself in a room and study.

If you think right now I am killing time blogging for no good reason...you are only half right. I also have a movie playing on another screen which is over 2 hours long...for a paper I am writing tomorrow night. Multitasking is a must in my life.

In addition to Skylar, I am surrounded my many other family members who are so supportive of me. Thought we continue to struggle with infertility, our testimonies were again strengthened recently when we were again told there is another child waiting to come to our family. See what I mean about the importance of the priesthood in my life? It's vital to my mental well being. I am so grateful for those family members and for their testimonies in which I find so much strength. This world we live in isn't easy and it's going to get a lot harder. It's so important to know who you are and to always stand for what you believe in. Sometimes this stance isn't easy and feelings may get hurt in the process but it's important to always be true to yourself.

On another high note, we went to Boise a couple of weekends ago to see my brother Cody and his family. We had an amazing time...those pictures are for sure to follow! Cody is another rock in my life. He is such a good big brother and always looks out for my wellbeing. Him and I stayed up til 2 AM talking and it was great to talk about the "good ole days"! He and I are 12 years apart in age but we have a good bond and a great relationship now and I am so grateful to have him in my life...plus his lovely wife and 4 amazingly cute kiddos! I wish they lived closer but thanks to technology and transportation it's not that far away really. That little mini staycation help revitalize me so I guess it's time to rock and roll for another crazy period of my life.

Wow...that was a lot but I feel like I got a load off my chest and can go to bed now and actually sleep. Thanks for listening and remember...."You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own.
And you know what you know. You are the guy who'll decide where to go.”- Dr Seuss